Well.. school, believe it or not, is quite fun! I met a gal name Kasey. She's like the only friend I have here. I've been spending a lot of time at her house lately, which is fantastic because now I don't have to be around my cousins or Mr. Jack very much :D. Kasey is so awesome.. I had dinner with her family last night! They're so sweet! I wish my family could be that way . Oh well, I guess life just doesn't work that way.

Thinks can only get better, right?

My mom called me the other day.. she said she went to a rehabilitation center to get off of drugs and alcohol.. (unwillingly.. unfortunately), but at least she went! I so hope that she can get better. I just want my mom back. I know I said she wasn't a very good mom, but I want her to be! I think if she gets off of all that shit that's she's on she'll come back to reality and grow up and be a real mother! Sheesh.. I can't believe I'm talking this way... But.. It's true?

OK, well I'm going over to Kasey's house. She said she's going to introduce me to her uncle (who is her same age).

Adios!

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Ok.. I'm living with my cousins. I am at their house right now. They haven't gotten any better... The first thing Mr. Jack did when saw me was grab my ass... he's such a bastard pervert!!! I can't believe I have to stay with them! I am so regretting coming to live with them!!!! UGHHHH When the social worker comes to check up on us I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO telling on him. This man just disgusts me. You should see what they're making me eat for dinner tonight >.< I can't even identify what it is. I would assume they threw their leftovers in a pot and boiled it in ketchup. They always do that.. They call it "Gormy cookin'!" ... They mispronounce the "gourmet."

I can't wait to go to school. I already know that I'm going to be spending all of my time there. There's no way I'm staying in this house any longer than I have to... Hopefully I can find a friend that I can stay with... maybe that way I can keep my dog there. I know that's alot to ask for, but there's no way in hell I'm keeping my dog here! You should see the way my cousins treat animals.

Right when I saw their dog I just knew my time here was going to be rough. I wish I could take a picture, but I dropped my camera at school last year, and we can't afford another one. The dog's name is Zeke. His fur is horribly matted, his ears are all beaten up, he's covered in dirt, he's missing his left eye.. it makes him look really scary. EWWWWW it's just so gross. He follows me around and his eyes like glow in the dark >.< .. well his EYE does. God it's like something out of some sick horror movie!!! It creeps me out! You can see where the skin has grown over the hole. Oh, and who could forget his lame leg.. Ricky cut part of it off last summer.. I have no effing idea why. That kid is seriously messed up! He tortures animals all the time... I remember when we were little and I used to visit them all the time in the summer.. he would burn ants with a magnifying glass... Eventually he worked his way up to cooking small rodents in the microwave.. I wouldn't know for sure... I only know what he tells me. He really makes me want to kill him. How could anyone let someone like that go living?! He's just ruining the world for everyone that knows him! That little bastard.. If he comes anywhere near my dog he is going to be VERY sorry that he did!!! Ugh.. I wish I was making this up, diary, but if you could just see the look in that poor dog's eyes.... it would just make you weep, and the way it hobbles around on it's lonely little legs... tripping and stumbling everywhere it goes.. It's nearly impossible to hold back my tears! I can't believe someone could be so cruel to a harmless animal like that!!

No doubt I'm going to get rid of my dog! I'll take her to the pound if I have to! Anything would be better than living here. I doubt my cousins even have dog food....... Knowing them they've never even fed their dog.. or if they did it was leftovers or something. I just can't see them buying dog food.... that's so unrealistic.

My social worker's name is Mrs. Pam. She said she is going to be checking up on us once a week for the first month, and then after that once every month.

Shit.. I gotta go. Mr. Jack is pulling in the driveway -.- He'd kill me if he saw me on his computer... I haven't set mine up yet.

Until next time, diary,

-Rachel.

PS: I'm going to pray to God tonight..I know I don't pray to him alot.. I'm not even sure if I believe in Him >.< Does that make me a bad person? Anways.. I'm going to try praying... hopefully things will get better.

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